For some reason, I just don't feel like sharing my inner thoughts with anyone I know anymore. There were times, when I used xanga, I am happy that there are actually people who know about the inner me. I want to display my inner me and if people still like that side of me I feel secured. I am now a even more inconfident person now, I do not want to let anyone know about the inner me. I don't believe that anyone would actually appreciate that side of me. I am alone. I am lonely. I have no friends. I have no one who truly understand me. I have got more acquaintances but you have got less friends. This is life, after you have grown up.